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Life Is Not About Success Or Prestige In A Certain Career Or Skill

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The greatest success I have achieved in my life is the simple wellness I now enjoy.

When I was a young child, I experienced trauma due to witnessing domestic abuse in my home.  This caused me to harbour feelings of sadness, which then evolved into clinical depression by the time I was eleven years old.  Suicidality followed when I was twelve, and I experienced my first hospitalisation at age fourteen.  This is when I started taking antidepressant medications.

I continued on through college successfully, where I studied classical music performance on the viola at a top conservatory.  Due to my depression, I was unable to practice on the instrument effectively, and so my progress at school was stunted.  This despair triggered emotions within me that eventually led to me believing I needed magic powers to play the viola better.  After beginning my master’s degree in performance at the same school, I had my first psychotic break and was hospitalised again.  My diagnosis changed to schizoaffective disorder, and I was unable to complete graduate school.

I attempted to return to school to become a classroom music teacher but was forced to quit when I had delusions that I was the reincarnation of Beethoven.  After going on disability, I then suddenly joined a radical church and abandoned all of my friends.  A few months later, I had the Beethoven thoughts again and returned to the hospital.  It always occurred that I would take a medication for a while, but then it would stop working and I would relapse.

My seventh hospitalisation occurred in 2012 when I started believing I was the Antichrist.  This time, I was hospitalised for three months and faced long-term institutionalisation.  I was prescribed Clozapine, an atypical antipsychotic medication, which rehabilitated me significantly and allowed for me to be discharged.

For the next year, I attended an outpatient day program as I rebuilt my life.  As I inventoried my interests and skills for returning to work, I learned about the career of the mental health peer specialist.  A “peer” is a person who has lived experience with mental illness, and then publicly discloses on the job so as to empathise and provide support in ways that clinicians cannot.  In 2014, I attended an intense training program at Howie the Harp Advocacy Center in Harlem, NYC to train for peer work, and then began working full-time at a mental health housing agency in Queens.

I have kept this full-time job for four years now.  Additionally, I am currently in my second year of graduate school at the Silberman School of Social Work at Hunter College.  My goal is to become a social worker who investigates the efficacy of peer practices in social work, which is still an under-researched topic today.  As I simultaneously pursue higher education and continue working, my professional network of peers and social workers both continues to expand, and I always advocate for peer work as a way to cross-pollenate between the two professions, thereby closing the gap.

I realise now that life is not about success or prestige in a certain career or skill.  The greatest success I have achieved in my life is the simple wellness I now enjoy.  I remember the disabling struggles I once had, and now want to use these memories as tools to empathise with others, giving them hope that recovery is possible.  I also want to create awareness about the peer career, and my dream is to see this profession expand into all agencies and organisations that provide mental health services.


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  1. Elizabeth Bosveld 28 December 2018 Reply

    I am recovering a day at a time from depression, anxiety and comwplex ptsd. I have done a lot of work on myself via Grow groups, codepency groups and counseling. I would like to subscribe to your magazine. I hope to soon be a peer support worker.

    • Bell Foundation 31 December 2018 Reply

      Hi Elizabeth,

      One day at a time is the only way to work on recovery. It is great to hear you have started your journey to recovery and found support in groups & counselling.

      Thanks for reading our blog & subscribing to our newsletter.

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